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inkisrunningTitle: Ryan Loves Me (or the last chapter, but not the end to my love)
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calidearie
Rating: R
Pairing: Ryden
POV: Brendon's
Summary: This is it, believe it. Or not.
Disclaimer: I don't own them, they own themselves.
Author Notes: It's been fun, hope you enjoyed!
[ETA:]
Author Notes II (as of 07/11/08): This had been written and posted prior to the split of Panic at the Disco, thank goodness, or it would have taken away from the story. I did not make this post public because I didn't know if I wanted to extend it. And now, at this point, because of current events I feel I will not be able to continue. With that said, I give you the last chapter! Thank you for supporting me and dealing with my MIA moments. I love you all!
Author Notes III (as of 07/24/09): I needed a beta. I found a beta. She was awesome. Thank you,longerthanwedo! I couldn’t have posted without you!
Teh Love Story
Ryan Named Me (or chapter one of my love story)
Ryan Kissed Me (or chapter two of my love story)
Ryan Found Me (or chapter three of my love story)
Ryan Saved Me (or chapter four of my love story)
Ryan Virginated Me (or chapter five of my love story)
Ryan F&cked Me (or chapter six of my love story)
Ryan Loves Me (or the last chapter, but not the end to my love)
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This is why this story exists.
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"Okay, okay, it's Ryan's turn. Truth or dare?" Pete said between laughs, but when his gaze fell on Ryan, there wasn't a chuckle to be heard. I noticed this look right from the start, when Pete first saw us, when we were nothing but a garage band.
Pete Wentz was more awestruck to meet Ryan than we were of meeting him. Okay, well, no, we were all just as excited. It was fucking Pete Wentz! But I think that it's fair to say that out of the four of us it was pretty obvious, he was more interested in Ryan.
I thought it was a bit unusual, but then I remembered that this is Ryan Ross we're talking about. Everyone is at least a little bit taken away by him. Ryan affects people. Once you meet him, there's no forgetting.
It may not even be about his looks, though you have to admit he's fucking hot. Well, aside from his looks there's this thing about him. This thing that pulls you in. I haven't figured it out yet.
And seeing Pete pay even more attention to Ryan, even more so than usual--and that's a lot, lot--I'm going to find out what it is that is so captivating about Ryan. Not that I was jealous or anything, but I was scared that I might lose him and that--THAT can't happen.
I looked around the room. Jon. Bill. Travis. Mike. Michael. Patrick. Andy. Spencer, bingo. If you want to know about Ryan, you speak to Spencer. Common knowledge.
"Hey, Spence."
"No."
"No?"
"The answer is no." Spencer confirmed.
"You haven't heard the question yet."
"Exactly."
"What are you talking about?"
"I didn't hear the question--the dare. None of us did." Spencer explained.
"Dude, again, what the hell are you talking about?"
"You were gonna ask what Ryan's dare was, right?" Spencer nodded towards a corner of the room.
"Wait, Pete dared Ryan? Ryan took one of Pete's dares? No one takes a dare from Pete!" I looked over at the two in question, just as the crowd erupted in laughter.
"Hey, Bill!" I ran over to William, who was seemingly on his way to get another drink. He raised his empty cup to me as I approached him.
"Hey, how come you’re not game?"
"Didn't feel into it."
"You should be. It would be your first time playing with Ross as your boyfriend."
"Does it change things?"
"Didn't everything change?"
I didn’t know where he was getting at with this line of questioning, so I nodded. "Hmmm. So, did you hear Ryan's dare?"
"From Pete? No, I wish though, it's been a long time since anyone accepted a dare from Pete."
"What was the crack-up about?"
"Gabe's truth. Ryan asked him if he--"
"Oh wow, are you serious? Never would have expected that," I said, nodding, not really caring. But just so you know, no one takes a truth from Ryan like no one takes a dare from Pete. Ryan has a way of getting a person to reveal the worst (depending how you look at it) and most secret things (also depending how you look at it) out of you, without you even realizing until it’s too late. Right now though, to tell you the truth, I wasn't paying attention to what Bill was going on about Gabe or did I cut him off? Oops. It's not important anyway.
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I remembered what I was going to ask Spencer later on that night.
But I didn't get to ask when Pete cornered me.
"So, you and Ryan?"
"Yeah, yeah. So, he accepted your dare?”
“Yeah.” He said, too quickly.
“You mind telling—“
“Fuck no.”
I kinda wanted to punch the stupid grin off Pete’s face that may or may not be too large for his body.
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It took me another hour and twenty-eight minutes to find Spencer again.
"Spence, where the fuck did you go?"
"Oh, I'm sorry, didn't know I had you for a stalker. Had I known, I would have made it easier for you. Maybe leave a gummy bear trail."
"Please, that would be such a waste of gummy bears. Maybe skittles, I don't really mind for Skittles. Or, no, I take that back. I’d eat the gummy bears anyway."
"I'll uhh... I'll keep that in mind. Have you seen Jon? He took my chips."
"Yeah, I saw him talking with Mike."
"If he's sharing MY chips, I'm gonna kill him!" Spencer said as he walked off. I was tempted to call him back and distract him because Jon actually gave me the potato chips, and I ate them all. And if Spencer killed Jon, then we would have had to find another bass player, again. And since I ate them, he might have killed me too, just for the fun of it, and who the fuck could replace me?
"Hey, Patrick!" Spencer yelled across the room.
Anyhow, I thought it best that Spencer and I kept our distance, at least until he was in a better mood.
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"No way, Gee, that's just not possible!" Even as I said this, I knew that perhaps what Gerard said was true, that Pete probably dared Ryan for a fuck or worse, a kiss.
"Anything's possible, take Gabe and Bill for example, when dared didn't they--"
"Fuck..." And fuck, I didn't need that image in my head.
"Exactly."
For just about the rest of the night, I ended up asking around, looking for where Pete and Ryan had disappeared off to.
And then I ran into him. Again. The one I was trying to track down.
"Spence, you're not gonna get away from me until I ask you what I need to ask you."
"As-away." Spencer drawled as he looked up from the sofa with a goofy smile. "Whats-yuu-wanna-knoww?"
"Well, I just wanted to know... the thing is... I'm scared. I mean about Ryan, he's like this--"
"Brendon, say no more--hey, did you know that your name sounds like Ben?”
“Suuure.” I said, unsurely. I carefully extracted a cup of who knows what from Spencer’s hand.
He pulled back and for a moment I thought that he was going to hit me, but he placed his hand on my shoulder and pulled me in. He hugged me.
“Don’t be scared, Ben, I love you, but not the way Ryan loves you or the way Pete loves Ryan… Wait, you ate my chips, you fucker!”
“Umm, no I didn’t.” I turned around and I kind of ran away.
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I ran into Ryan.
“Hey, Baby, been looking for you,” he whispered into my ear.
“You have?”
Ryan nodded and took my hand and led me out of the room.
And into a dark room. I wasn’t sure what kind of room or whose room it was. But whether I knew or not didn’t change what happened next. Ryan kissed me just as he closed the door behind us. His lips crashed onto mine and our tongues met. I could taste the alcohol on his lips and I think he tasted the cigarette I smoked earlier because he pulled back for a second. I couldn’t see him. It was too dark but I could imagine his nose crinkling in distaste. I opened my mouth to mutter an apology, but I didn’t have the time to say it before his lips met mine again. He pulled me flush against his body. The kiss was earth shattering.
The door opened—FLASH.
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[EPILOGUE]
The flash came from Ryan’s phone. Pete took the picture. A great, memorable moment. A terrible, pixilated shot.
Ryan grinned as he looked at the picture, then he turned the phone around for me to see.
I don’t think I said anything; I just let the scene unfold before me.
Ryan looked at Pete and Pete looked at Ryan.
“You don’t have to do it,” Pete half whispered. But the whole room, filled with my friends--my family, heard. I’m sure of it.
“I’m not backing out of a fucking a dare, Pete, especially yours.” Ryan grinned back. And then he faced me and smiled. “And even more so... I'm doing it because Brendon Boyd Urie, Peppababy, I love you.” He placed a quick chaste kiss on my lips, and I vaguely remember the awwwwws and whistles as Ryan looked at me as he pressed the send button on his phone, sending the shot to the band’s blog.
The picture of us kissing in the closet was posted on a very public page as if it were nothing and everything, outing us to the world.
This is the story of our love. This is how I saw it all happen, and believe it or not, this was just the beginning.
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Author:
calidearieRating: R
Pairing: Ryden
POV: Brendon's
Summary: This is it, believe it. Or not.
Disclaimer: I don't own them, they own themselves.
Author Notes: It's been fun, hope you enjoyed!
[ETA:]
Author Notes II (as of 07/11/08): This had been written and posted prior to the split of Panic at the Disco, thank goodness, or it would have taken away from the story. I did not make this post public because I didn't know if I wanted to extend it. And now, at this point, because of current events I feel I will not be able to continue. With that said, I give you the last chapter! Thank you for supporting me and dealing with my MIA moments. I love you all!
Author Notes III (as of 07/24/09): I needed a beta. I found a beta. She was awesome. Thank you,
longerthanwedo! I couldn’t have posted without you! Teh Love Story
Ryan Named Me (or chapter one of my love story)
Ryan Kissed Me (or chapter two of my love story)
Ryan Found Me (or chapter three of my love story)
Ryan Saved Me (or chapter four of my love story)
Ryan Virginated Me (or chapter five of my love story)
Ryan F&cked Me (or chapter six of my love story)
Ryan Loves Me (or the last chapter, but not the end to my love)
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This is why this story exists.
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"Okay, okay, it's Ryan's turn. Truth or dare?" Pete said between laughs, but when his gaze fell on Ryan, there wasn't a chuckle to be heard. I noticed this look right from the start, when Pete first saw us, when we were nothing but a garage band.
Pete Wentz was more awestruck to meet Ryan than we were of meeting him. Okay, well, no, we were all just as excited. It was fucking Pete Wentz! But I think that it's fair to say that out of the four of us it was pretty obvious, he was more interested in Ryan.
I thought it was a bit unusual, but then I remembered that this is Ryan Ross we're talking about. Everyone is at least a little bit taken away by him. Ryan affects people. Once you meet him, there's no forgetting.
It may not even be about his looks, though you have to admit he's fucking hot. Well, aside from his looks there's this thing about him. This thing that pulls you in. I haven't figured it out yet.
And seeing Pete pay even more attention to Ryan, even more so than usual--and that's a lot, lot--I'm going to find out what it is that is so captivating about Ryan. Not that I was jealous or anything, but I was scared that I might lose him and that--THAT can't happen.
I looked around the room. Jon. Bill. Travis. Mike. Michael. Patrick. Andy. Spencer, bingo. If you want to know about Ryan, you speak to Spencer. Common knowledge.
"Hey, Spence."
"No."
"No?"
"The answer is no." Spencer confirmed.
"You haven't heard the question yet."
"Exactly."
"What are you talking about?"
"I didn't hear the question--the dare. None of us did." Spencer explained.
"Dude, again, what the hell are you talking about?"
"You were gonna ask what Ryan's dare was, right?" Spencer nodded towards a corner of the room.
"Wait, Pete dared Ryan? Ryan took one of Pete's dares? No one takes a dare from Pete!" I looked over at the two in question, just as the crowd erupted in laughter.
"Hey, Bill!" I ran over to William, who was seemingly on his way to get another drink. He raised his empty cup to me as I approached him.
"Hey, how come you’re not game?"
"Didn't feel into it."
"You should be. It would be your first time playing with Ross as your boyfriend."
"Does it change things?"
"Didn't everything change?"
I didn’t know where he was getting at with this line of questioning, so I nodded. "Hmmm. So, did you hear Ryan's dare?"
"From Pete? No, I wish though, it's been a long time since anyone accepted a dare from Pete."
"What was the crack-up about?"
"Gabe's truth. Ryan asked him if he--"
"Oh wow, are you serious? Never would have expected that," I said, nodding, not really caring. But just so you know, no one takes a truth from Ryan like no one takes a dare from Pete. Ryan has a way of getting a person to reveal the worst (depending how you look at it) and most secret things (also depending how you look at it) out of you, without you even realizing until it’s too late. Right now though, to tell you the truth, I wasn't paying attention to what Bill was going on about Gabe or did I cut him off? Oops. It's not important anyway.
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I remembered what I was going to ask Spencer later on that night.
But I didn't get to ask when Pete cornered me.
"So, you and Ryan?"
"Yeah, yeah. So, he accepted your dare?”
“Yeah.” He said, too quickly.
“You mind telling—“
“Fuck no.”
I kinda wanted to punch the stupid grin off Pete’s face that may or may not be too large for his body.
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It took me another hour and twenty-eight minutes to find Spencer again.
"Spence, where the fuck did you go?"
"Oh, I'm sorry, didn't know I had you for a stalker. Had I known, I would have made it easier for you. Maybe leave a gummy bear trail."
"Please, that would be such a waste of gummy bears. Maybe skittles, I don't really mind for Skittles. Or, no, I take that back. I’d eat the gummy bears anyway."
"I'll uhh... I'll keep that in mind. Have you seen Jon? He took my chips."
"Yeah, I saw him talking with Mike."
"If he's sharing MY chips, I'm gonna kill him!" Spencer said as he walked off. I was tempted to call him back and distract him because Jon actually gave me the potato chips, and I ate them all. And if Spencer killed Jon, then we would have had to find another bass player, again. And since I ate them, he might have killed me too, just for the fun of it, and who the fuck could replace me?
"Hey, Patrick!" Spencer yelled across the room.
Anyhow, I thought it best that Spencer and I kept our distance, at least until he was in a better mood.
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"No way, Gee, that's just not possible!" Even as I said this, I knew that perhaps what Gerard said was true, that Pete probably dared Ryan for a fuck or worse, a kiss.
"Anything's possible, take Gabe and Bill for example, when dared didn't they--"
"Fuck..." And fuck, I didn't need that image in my head.
"Exactly."
For just about the rest of the night, I ended up asking around, looking for where Pete and Ryan had disappeared off to.
And then I ran into him. Again. The one I was trying to track down.
"Spence, you're not gonna get away from me until I ask you what I need to ask you."
"As-away." Spencer drawled as he looked up from the sofa with a goofy smile. "Whats-yuu-wanna-knoww?"
"Well, I just wanted to know... the thing is... I'm scared. I mean about Ryan, he's like this--"
"Brendon, say no more--hey, did you know that your name sounds like Ben?”
“Suuure.” I said, unsurely. I carefully extracted a cup of who knows what from Spencer’s hand.
He pulled back and for a moment I thought that he was going to hit me, but he placed his hand on my shoulder and pulled me in. He hugged me.
“Don’t be scared, Ben, I love you, but not the way Ryan loves you or the way Pete loves Ryan… Wait, you ate my chips, you fucker!”
“Umm, no I didn’t.” I turned around and I kind of ran away.
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I ran into Ryan.
“Hey, Baby, been looking for you,” he whispered into my ear.
“You have?”
Ryan nodded and took my hand and led me out of the room.
And into a dark room. I wasn’t sure what kind of room or whose room it was. But whether I knew or not didn’t change what happened next. Ryan kissed me just as he closed the door behind us. His lips crashed onto mine and our tongues met. I could taste the alcohol on his lips and I think he tasted the cigarette I smoked earlier because he pulled back for a second. I couldn’t see him. It was too dark but I could imagine his nose crinkling in distaste. I opened my mouth to mutter an apology, but I didn’t have the time to say it before his lips met mine again. He pulled me flush against his body. The kiss was earth shattering.
The door opened—FLASH.
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[EPILOGUE]
The flash came from Ryan’s phone. Pete took the picture. A great, memorable moment. A terrible, pixilated shot.
Ryan grinned as he looked at the picture, then he turned the phone around for me to see.
I don’t think I said anything; I just let the scene unfold before me.
Ryan looked at Pete and Pete looked at Ryan.
“You don’t have to do it,” Pete half whispered. But the whole room, filled with my friends--my family, heard. I’m sure of it.
“I’m not backing out of a fucking a dare, Pete, especially yours.” Ryan grinned back. And then he faced me and smiled. “And even more so... I'm doing it because Brendon Boyd Urie, Peppababy, I love you.” He placed a quick chaste kiss on my lips, and I vaguely remember the awwwwws and whistles as Ryan looked at me as he pressed the send button on his phone, sending the shot to the band’s blog.
The picture of us kissing in the closet was posted on a very public page as if it were nothing and everything, outing us to the world.
This is the story of our love. This is how I saw it all happen, and believe it or not, this was just the beginning.
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Date: 2009-07-25 05:28 pm (UTC)read it all in one sitting an I am quite pleased that I did
yayz
so awesomely lovey dovey and rydon, and WHY THE HELL DID THIS NOT HAPPEN?
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Date: 2009-07-25 07:18 pm (UTC)Best thing i've read in ages
So i just sat and read it all now and it made me smile a lot and it just made me all round happy
Happier :)
Ahhh I love fluffy lovey dovey fics and shizz and wow i'm rambling but i do that when I'm in awe
<3 ahmazinggg
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Date: 2009-07-25 10:02 pm (UTC)2) this was a terribly amazing story
3) I loveloveloved how you portrayed brendon in this just <333
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Date: 2009-07-25 11:21 pm (UTC)awsum fic
<3
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Date: 2009-07-26 02:39 am (UTC)so. I'm dead right now.
love you for writing this.
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